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Friday, 24 October 2008

  • anyone else out there frustrated?

    The government has 700 billion to pull outta it's butt to pay off banker's debts. What about the education debt in America? What about the state of the healthcare system? What about immigration? Where the heck is the money to pull outta our butts to solve those issues? Just wondering over here.

Saturday, 18 October 2008

  • where I am and where I'll be...


    I am very new to the Christian faith. I'm in the infancy of my walk with Christ and I have learned so much since I devoted my life to Him nearly one short year ago. I do not mean to use that as an excuse, only the rationale onto why I have some very basic paradigm shifts quite often!

    My heart's desire these days is not what I would say is a socially acceptable norm for a 19-year-old young woman. Instead of focusing on my degree and where I am in life, I look forward and ahead to a marrying the man I feel God has brought me to and building our lives together. While God is glorious enough to motivate me in school and to give me the sustenance to get through a truly trying time in life, there are so many days where I just want to be past this part of life. I don't want to be broke anymore, I'm tired of being tired, I hate living dependent upon my parents, and I am so sick of resisting temptation and leaving my boyfriend every single night. I don't want to be cooked for I'd like to make my own meals, and to do my laundry whenever I darn well feel like it, etc. (Ahem, a little immature much?)

    Do you realize how selfish all of that sounds? Oh, I hate it when I realize that I have been horrendously selfish, don't you? I was reading My Utmost For His Highest last night and God started whispering to my heart about this. I turned to my journal and began to write. My reading last night included a day about revelations God can reveal to our hearts in an instant. It's like a sunbeam straight to your heart on a cloudy day. I realized that God wants me here, and He will alter my situation as life sees fit. Without this part of my life I doubt I would be ready for the things I want (at the very least I could not afford them!). I need to be at a 12-hour a week job, I need to finish my degree, I need more time in general.

    I wrote last night that it may not be easy but God never said that things had to be easy. Moses got lost in the desert for 40 years. Jesus Christ carried the cross and died on it for our sins! One of the songs at my church has lyrics that go "He never said that the cross wouldn't get heavy, He never said it would be easy to bear". Well there you go. I always pray that not my will, but my Father's be done. And he's taking complete control of my life. I know that in the end He sees who I can be, not who I am. He knows where I am going and how long it will take me to get there. I have total faith in His plan for my life.

Wednesday, 24 September 2008

  • i'm eating too much.

    That's the way my boyfriend likes to tell me that my plate is too full-- "I'm eating too much". The past three days have included our anniversary, two hours making his favorite cookies, an exam in class, five hours of class, six loads of laundry, one movie (sex and the city!), a few prayers, two shifts at work, and very very little sleep. I realzie that was a run-on sentence, however; that's how my life feels these days. Like a big run-on running on of running on nothing.

    On another interesting sidenote (to me an no one else of course) why are there specifically "religious" wedding invitations. Aren't ALL marriages supposed to be a union under God? If so, why doesn't every inviation have the words "Join us as they are joined in a union under Christ" or other such wordings.

    On another highly politcally charged note, what happened to "the fundamentals of the economy are sound" Mr. Bush? Oh, we're on our way to recession? Oh, this could be a crisis? Oh, this could be painful? Come to Michigan, Mr. Bush and fellow Republicans. Come see college students who struggle to pay no more than a thousand dollars in tuition but can't get student aid. Come see parents getting laid off in droves, one each month, to the point where chronically, painfully, ill children aren't eligible to recieve healthcare (that would be me, by the way). Oh, that address just made me so upset tonight. I dislike the expansion of government so much, and I thought that was supposed to be a Republican ideal. Lassiez faire and all that jazz. But if I vote I'm voting Democrat. Was it always this confusing to be an American?

Tuesday, 09 September 2008

  • space or time, which is the more important?

    Today I had an ephiphany of sorts, while observing the leftovers in my refrigerator. I'm a live-at-home college student and my stepmother has a tendency to downsize her leftovers. By that, I mean she'll start off with say, half a pot of perogies. They go into a medium-large sized bowl. Whenever some of the leftovers get eaten, she downsizes the bowl. By the end of the process there is usually one or two perogies left on a small plate in our refrigerator.

    It's such a contrast in our personalities in the strangest way. She would rather take up a generous amount of time switching and washing and putting away a series of dishes to store one item of leftovers. I'd rather take up a little extra space in the 'fridge than spend any amount of time downsizing leftovers.

    Which would you rather do? Think of it in life terms, not perogie terms. Think of it in terms of events or challenges or a series of happenings to be taken care of. Would you rather work at things little by little, reducing by small amounts to make a change? Or would you rather 'take up space' in your life leaving time to take care of things one by one?

Thursday, 28 August 2008

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